In life we develop "friendships" or so we think so. But just as much as the bus runs friends come and go. I've never really had a bunch of family I could depend on. Most of my elders either spent most of their natural life in jail, or died suddenly of lifes circumstances. My cousins, sister and brothers, have always lived in another state, hell even the ones that live in my state are estranged. Becoming recluses in their own right. So it's a no brainer that i depend on my friends more than the next man.
Growing up I can remember getting into trouble for defending my friends againt my little sister in arguements. The sound of my mothers voice still resonates in my head each time I lose a friend over some dumb shit. But lately I have learned from someone I revere more my brother than my own, "People are gonna do what they gonna do, you can't get mad at them for it" and for the most part I have more than accomodated people with that same motto.
Having said that, people are gonna do what they are gonna do, EVERYTIME! thats the problem though, why create a relationship that you know in time you are gonna fuck up? If you know you are a shady person then why not, stop creating relationships with people not built on trust?
The fact is I just needed to vent. I am happy I know who I can trust. Im happy I know on who I can depend on. i know who I can revere as "Family" I guess in the end the same shady people I have been hurt by has only made me closer to the people who count "FAMILY", I can dig it.
